At A Glance
- Turns out, pretending to die beautifully on camera can really take it out of you.
Apparently, acting isn’t all red carpets and free champagne.
Who knew?
Angelica Panganiban just dropped the truth bomb we didn’t ask for but secretly needed: Showbiz is emotionally exhausting, and sometimes, the bottle looks kinder than sleep.
On Alyssa Valdez’s Spotify podcast, Angelica defended her fellow actors, the ones we assume live in silk robes and cry only when eyeliner runs.
“Alam mo kung ano yung mahirap na hindi naiintindihan ng mga tao?” she said. “Akala nila yung mga artista, ‘Ah, wild iyan, pariwara iyan.’ Pero hindi nila alam ang pinagdadaanan namin every scene.”
And by "pinagdadaanan," she means emotional triathlon: One minute you’re mourning a death, the next you’re in a birthday scene, then — surprise — digging through childhood trauma before lunch.
“Uuwi ka ng bahay na ang daming nangyari sa iyo, mentally. So, hindi ka talaga makakatulog,” she said.
So what do you do after fake-crying your soul out on set? You cope.
“May ibang tao, ang takbuhan nila is alcohol or drugs,” Angelica admitted. “Parang gagaan ang loob mo, kahit paano, maitutulog mo.”
But the “coping” has a catch.
“Para siyang blackhole, pag pinasok mo, puwede ka niyang higupin,” she warned, describing both addiction and the entertainment industry.
She recalled her 2009 meltdown, crying between shoots.
“Iyak ako nang iyak. Sabi ko, hindi ko na kilala yung sarili ko.”
So yes, glamour has its price and it’s not just the bar tab.
Turns out, pretending to die beautifully on camera can really take it out of you.