"I can’t even put my feelings into words."
"You have brought me so much joy, even for a few months that i carried you within me. It was all pure joy," Kyla Alvarez started her Instagram post.
This isn't the first time she and her husband Rich Alvarez lost a baby. "But losing you again for the fourth time is unimaginable. I can’t even put my feelings into words."
One cannot imagine what she is going through now. "I find it so hard to share my loss, because we didn’t tell anyone about our pregnancy. We wanted to share our excitement with our family, but, later on, ended up sharing our grief. I am screaming and crying in my head, and I couldn’t tell anyone."
And with every grief and challenge that comes, we all know that there will always be that light at the end of the tunnel. "I know things will be ok in the end," she adds, thanking God for His presence. "I thank God for touching my heart right at this moment. Everyday, i have to intentionally look for just about anything that’ll make me happy. I have to constantly remind myself that God has already placed people in my life to love- people that i need in life. He has blessed me with the best ones to love and love me back. Everything else is just bonus."
She ends her post by surrendering all the hurt to Him. "And to you, my little one. I pray for you. I hope you’ve felt how much we longed for you, prayed for you, and how much we love you."