Julia Barretto has come out to admit she is not on speaking terms again with her dad Dennis Padilla.
In an interview with Karen Davila, Marjorie Barretto's daughter revealed this is so because she's just "really scared."
“I’ll be very honest. We have not spoken and it's because there’s just so much fear inside me. I’m just really scared,” she said.
Julia explained how her relationship with her father has been a cycle of "making up" and "getting hurt."
"And you know, I just want to kind of huminga lang muna from that cycle," she related.
But she's praying that in God’s time everything will be resolved.
Julia reiterated that it's not an issue of forgiveness but of forgetting.
“I think it's not difficult for us to forgive. But it's difficult to really just... It's not the forgiveness, it's to forget. It’s also just, there’s a lot of fear because I don’t know what’s gonna happen. But forgiveness, of course, definitely. That’s for my own peace of mind, di ba? Hindi ko ipagkakait ang forgiveness but I’m just not that ready. There’s just been so much pain over the years since I was young. So parang I got tired of the same thing.”
The 25-year-old star admitted it's hard for her.
“Sa commandments... no matter what happens, they’re your parents. And I always ask God, actually, I say: ‘You know God, I know a parent is a parent and I’m only just a child but at the same time saan yung boundary na a child is also allowed to get hurt and have their own pains?'”
She related: “I just need more love from him. More love, more protection. I just feel like he should be my number one protector and that’s not really what I’m getting right now from him. So it does hurt because dapat siya yung tinatakbuhan ko, di ba? But it is sad that I can't. So I pray for it."
Julia shared that Dennis did try to reach out to her but she's not just really ready yet.
And she doesn't want to "force" herself to do so.
"Because if you force yourself then it's not genuine, hindi siya totoo," she said. "So I want to get to a point na, you know, when we speak it's when I'm ready. It's just over the years, it's been the same conversation."
Julia also talked about her only brother Leon's viral open letter to Dennis a few months ago.
"I was very pained but (I did) not cry," she said about it.
"I think it was because it wasn't new. But it was more like pain because before it used to be just between my dad and I. And now it was between my younger brother and my dad. And it's painful because sometimes kung pwedeng sa akin na lang yung all the pain, if I could just spare my siblings from some traumas from certain conversations," she added.
"Thankfully, Leon is brave," Julia said.
And she's proud that the latter is now the "man of the house."
"And he's so protective and he's the youngest pa. I'm grateful he spoke up and he protected us," she said.
So is it still possible for all of them to get along?
"Oh yeah. I think it's possible. But I do hope though that there's healing between everyone and na ma-resolve. But I'm not sure if it can ever be the same again. But that's just the truth. I'm not sure if it can ever be the same again but I do hope for healing and just ma-resolve."