Miss Universe 2021 Top 5 finalist Beatrice Gomez finally broke her silence on what happened between her and former partner DJ Kate Jagdon.
On Instagram, Gomez posted: "Everyone had said their opinions, posted their statements, shared their sympathies, and expressed their hate. I am simply putting this out there for my own peace of mind and nothing else."
"I chose to compartmentalize my own personal baggages and set it aside to focus on representing Cebu City for MUPH and after that focused all my energy in training and working hard for the Miss Universe competition. Aside from the pressure of representing the country I had to suffer being scrutinized by people who didn't know my side of the story," she related.
Gomez reiterated that it didn't bother her that people were spreading rumors about her. What made her finally say "enough is enough" is the continuous harassment as directed towards her and her loved ones.
She revealed that trolls were posting comments on social media about her personal life as if they knew who she is.
"And even up to this day they would continue to disrespect me on a platform that I use positively for my causes," she related. "Fake news from social media corrupted so many minds. It affected even the things I advocate for, the very people who I've been rallying for way before Bb. Cebu and MUPH tried to cancel me and told me that I only used being an LGBT member for the clout. Clout chasing is staying in a toxic relationship just to keep you people entertained."
Gomez admitted that because of what happened, "doubts, fears, and trust issues" began to grow inside her even as she continued to see people hiding behind fake accounts "attacking and harassing" her.
It took a toll on her mental health, she pointed out.
"It was affecting my family and friends and yet I continued to keep quiet. I didn't want anyone to get hurt by telling it all. Until the night before the Miss Universe finals I continued to receive messages from her followers, friends, and family about how they wished I'd lose because 'I made her life miserable when I decided to break up with her,'" Gomez shared.
The beauty queen maintained she can only endure so much for too long.
"It is hard to advocate for mental health when I myself struggled through pressure, anxiety, and even depression," she said.
Then Gomez went on to reveal that on her way to the MUPH competition, after a series of confrontations, she learned that Jagdon had already been entertaining a person named "Adam" for over a year during their relationship.
"She's made out with someone, made a move on other girls, and have been going out more often than usual that there were even times she wouldn't come home for days," she added. "I wouldn't know where she was or who she was with. I didn't recognize her anymore and things began to change. People warned me about what she's been doing and yet I continued to defend her and even tried my best to make it work."
The 26-year-old model also shared that for over two months while in Manila, she was on video call with Jagdon who is in Cebu.
But the long distance that separated them made it hard.
There were days that instead of talking about how their days went, Jagdon would be at a party or playing video games.
"I wasn't perfect either. I focused too much on trying to grow without realizing that I've been taking her for granted," Gomez said. "All along she had been the victim of this break up because she chose to. She didn't have to explain herself because I was already being antagonized and everyone's sympathy was with her."
Gomez said she struggled a lot living alone, adjusting to a new city, and even getting to know people who she can trust and depend on.
"I gained strength, courage, and confidence to get used to a life without her. People like Sven Chua, Edward Castro, Dom Moreno, Maui Potente, Oyelle de Leon, and John Odin, they were few of the people who were constantly present when I needed someone to keep me going during my MUPH stint," she related. "That kind of support grew when I won and was about to compete for MU. People who said they'd be here to support me when I needed them only wanted to be present when I already won."
More than anything, she can only hope for the best for both of them.
"I did love her. I don't regret anything in the six years that we've been together. I loved her until the last day I was with her," Gomez declared. "We both deserve to be happy... genuinely happy."
Recall that last Valentine's day, Gomez surprised her fans posting a photo of her with Odin.
Note it came three months after Jagdon announced they're no longer a couple.
Recall that following Jagdon's announcement, rumors about Gomez allegedly cheating on Jagdon surfaced.
It didn't help that she posted and deleted a photo of her holding hands with Odin.