Ellen Adarna, on mental health and motherhood lessons

Published January 5, 2021, 6:25 PM

by Jane Kingsu-Cheng

Since opening up about being diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) last May 2020, Ellen Adarna has been sharing snippets of her new #momlife with her baby Elias and netizens are loving it.

But what really happened when she hid away from the world? Model and mom Mikaela Lagdameo Martinez invited Ellen Adarna for a quick catch up over on Instagram TV.

ME time
Of course, everyone was curious, just like the host Mika, on how life is now with Ellen. The young mom shares that she now wakes up between 6 to 7 a.m., “I have my rituals, my ME time. That’s very important for me. I meditate, I journal.”

As to what she writes on her journal, “I write on it every morning like letters to Elias. Progress—what happened the day or night before. They’re like my diary but letters to him, so I can backtrack. It’s also my way of introspecting.”

Her meditation takes about 40 minutes, “It’s like my maintenance.” By 10 a.m., she goes to work and goes home 2 a.m. to spend time with Elias and work out after.

“It’s also a discipline practice. It’s not that I wanted it but I just started doing it last year—for me to have rituals and a routine so I don’t fall back into depression,” she affirms that it’s been working so far for her.

Stable environment
She also shared the questions she asked her therapist, like why she has a lot of friends are very insecure. That’s because Ellen was raised in a secure environment, “that gave me the security that I have now.”

She also credits her father for giving her and her siblings freedom to do whatever they want. “He had rules—’just don’t fail but you can do whatever you want.'”

Chaotic life
With the two-week mental training course that she went through, she learned something that helped her up until this day. Her mentor came across her messy room and told her, “This is why your life is chaotic, your room is chaotic!” She added, “The reason why my life is so chaotic is that I don’t have harmony in me. Everything was not aligned.”

“It really worked. It went to my subconscious,” says Ellen who now fixes her bed every day, something she never did before. “That exercise really did something.”

New life with Elias
Motherhood has given her life new meaning. If not for Elias, “I’ll still be lost. I was getting tired of it (party party)… he (Elias) really did give me purpose and meaning.”

Now at 32 years old, Ellen has realized that “everything is just really here (points to her head).” The important exercise she has learned is to identify her emotions (be it frustration, anger, or anxious), and manage it. “Basically observing when these feelings come and let it pass. It’s really mind control.”

One last lesson learned for her, “Everything is just really passing. There is no right or wrong past. It’s just life happening, letting us experience and learn from it, enriching us with experiences at the time we need it. “